Couldn't, Wouldn't, Shouldn't...Wasn't

I have tried my best to hide how I feel but I couldn't
I tried to not feel the pain and make it go away but it wouldn't
I want make you wrap your arms around me but I know that I shouldn't
I thought it's easy to not be with you, I was wrong because it wasn't

I asked you if you loved me you answered by "I couldn't"
I asked you if you will ever love me you said "I wouldn't"
I asked you again if you can try to learn to love me you said "I shouldn't"
I then said that I always knew you were the one but you said "I wasn't"

It's hard to pretend that it can be mended when it couldn't
I have laid myself here hoping that my heart would heal but it wouldn't
I still feel for you and I still love you when I know I shouldn't
Wishing that I was the one in your heart when I know that I wasn't